So, I have been pretty ill the last week or so and it has made me take life sooooo slow which is hard for me. I had severe kidney pain for a few days before I finally went to see a doctor with a high fever and very bad pain. He gave me all kinds of pills and sent me home where I spent two days in a pain med haze. I'm slowly feeling better but the pain is still bothering me and this morning when I talked to a neighbor about my weekend she told me how it took her forever to figure out her own kidney problems since she had always blamed her symptoms on a sore muscle or back pain. It hit me then, that I have had kidney pain since JANUARY! I had waves of pain every day and blamed them on my workouts. I kept thinking that I must have pulled a muscle or caught an odd cold. Altogether I have been feeling off. Not very motivated to do the things that bring me joy, my running has gotten incredibly hard and often left me depleted of all energy and I have gained some weight since my motivation to meet my life every day has been so low. Oh well. I guess my high tolerance for pain has served me poorly. I am surprised at my own willingness to ignore my body and I feel so tired. After this has been taken care of and I am symptom free I see myself starting from scratch in many regards. And the thought of that makes me tired. So, off I go to another doctors appointment. Wish me luck.
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gute besserung! Pass auf dich auch. Brauchst du etwas? ich bring dir gerne mal dinner fuer euch alle! Sag nur bescheid und es ist auf dem Weg!
meine liebe mirjam, ich hoffe die medikamente koennen endlich mal die sache auskurieren! der alltag ist oft anstrengend genug ohne schmerzen. ich hoffe sehr, dass es dir bald VIEL besser geht. das schoene fruehlingswetter hilft da auch bestimmt. bussi.
gute besserung, mirjam!
Hi Mirjam,
I'm so sorry to hear you haven't been feeling well, and I wish you a speedy recovery. Also, I hope it's not strange that I visited your blog--you were such a great part of Justin's project last year, and we love that image of you and Anuk so much, that I genuinely like you even though we've only met briefly. Looking at your blog tonight makes me like you even more.
Amy
Oh no! I'm so sorry...this reminded me of what I went through last year. After a year of kidney pain, I finally found out I had 2 kidney stones. I hope you can get everything figured out. I had NO normal symptoms of kidney stones, so don't rule that out!
I'm less bad but not really better yet. But another round of Antibiotics (that make me dizzy, thank you very much) will hopefully do the trick. Thank you so much for your kind words! This has been a strange year so far but I have hope for the rest of it...
And hello, Amy! I have been looking at this years strangers and love them all! I can't wait for the show at the end...
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